"So what do we do? What do we do?"

Currently: ...well it's midnight, so what do I always do on weeknights at midnight? Sex and the City...duh. You really don't know me at all do you?

The more I think about it, the more excited and scared I get about what's ahead. What to do when I'm done with this place (Harvard of the West) and continue on this path called life? There are a few things I know and a few things I do not know...

Thing I know:
I want to live in a huge city- I'm talking Bright Lights, Big City. San Francisco, New York, SEATTLE, or possibly Sydney? The idea of living in a place where you can stumble across something brand new everyday makes me want to just pack up and transfer to SF State.

Thing I don't know:
How the heck am I going to deal with moving from Rocklin, to Chico, to (INSERT AMAZING CITY HERE)? I have lived my whole life in suburbia, not to mention a short car ride away from everyone in my family. I'll probably sit in my closet and assume the fetal position for at least the first 3 days. Then I'll just people-watch like Jenna and I did for about 3 hours when we went to SF, instead of 3 hours it will probably be 2 weeks.

Thing I know:
I want to work for an amazing PR agency. I want a job that will challenge me and always keep me on my toes. If I have to sit at a desk for 9-5 I'll gladly become a trophy wife, at least I can hang out at country clubs and drink champagne all day.

Thing I don't know:
How am I going to ever get this job? The job I want is so magnificent I know I'm going to have to pay my dues in the PR world before I become Princess PR. The only thing is I have never had to deal with that kind of adversity in my life (I'm kind of a dead beat). Will I be able to live through agency hell to come out on top? Only time will really tell.

Thing I know:
I don't want to get married until I'm at least 28.

Thing I don't know:
What if I meet this perfect man next week (highly unlikely but eh...) and he sweeps me off my feet and we get married..and then what? I have this REALLY bad idea that marriage will be the end of my life as I know it and I really need to stop thinking so negatively, I think my cynical view-points on love and marriage are potentially going to make me live a miserable life as a crazy cat lady, all by myself. My mom tells me I need to "let love in."

Well this was a little profound for my taste but I swear I'll go back to my witty, sarcastic posts next time...(TBA when THAT will be.)